no two ways about it.
i am scared, and i feel SO ALONE...

last week things were good...

this week i feel ignored by god... AGAIN-__-

i am trying my hardest to be faithful and beleive...

i DO NOT... i CONNOT go back to that depression...

i dont know what to do think say or feel.

i am paralyzed with fear...

i am so scared of making a mistake...

the way i see it, mistakes are not nessecaery when you have CLEAR directions...

everything is my head is fuzzy!

i head so many different "thruths"

i dont knw where i stand...

i KNOW NOTHING... all o feel is confused frusteted and ignored...

i am almost back to sq one....

i need god more than life it self... but in times of depseration... it's like he isnt so eager...

the struggle to stay positive is REAL....

mayb i never was fully recoved from depression... mayb.... i cant even say it...

im gonna go back to reading this book... mayb it'll help...

i JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.