I dont know where to start, but in a good way...

wait: first things first: i gotta fgire out WHAT IT IS that makes me NOT wanna be around or talk to my mom and erica... It's like... something about them, or me, REpluses me and i just dont want to be bothered... but then other times... i'm cool. Mostly when i nedd something, but sometimes im cool for no reason...
idkk...

i dont want to be like this.

okk. now to the better news....

i have been in a GREAT mood lately...

i feel like i am DEFINITELY on the rd to recovery....

my depression was REAL, but i feel like it was necessary as opposed to consequences...idkk...
but yes, i feel good.

i am learning about myself... and the character of god... i am learning that untill i KNOW ME... and i KNOW GOD... NOONE else can be added to the mix, not a Husband, not a career, not anything that sets me on my path to purpose... idkk about getting a job... i am really just waiting for god to open ANY door he wants me to walk through... i still lack discernment... and until i agin trust in god and gain discernment i think it is best for me to STAY STILL....

todays's question:

What are YOU Passionate about?
-Helping others/service/giving
-raising Awareness to "Taboo" problems... eg.: ED, Suicide, depression,self harm, traffiking... rape...poverty, third wrld cntries. things of that nature, things noone talks about...
-Prevention-- helping people learn the importance of learning from other peoples mistakes....teaching young people to NOT repeat history thru the same mistakes.
-Music-- sharing music.... interaction with artists...

-pubplic speaking & traveling --- im not sure if these are passions, but the are VERY important to my life.. i feel very strongly about them and so i am putting them on the list as well.

the more i becaome self aware i the more i am open to accapting my flaws and leaning on God for change.

i realize this takes time and in the process i am learning patiance.