okk. so obviously things have been going extremely well. i haven't felt the need o post here...
i have an actual written blog and i absolutely LOVE writing it!
i don't vlog as much. mainly because i put my ideas down in writing now.
i havent felt the need to vlog since i blog everyday.

that's all i've really been up to is blogging.
God is legit. i haven't had a bad DAY since... i guess the last time i posted here that i've had a bad day.
ive had a few low moments but im learning to cry out to jesus AS SOON AS they hit. not wallow in my feelings.

i am ready to work! omg! im so ready to get out this house! i also miss my car, but i see no rush in getting it fixed because i have nowhere to go.

Here is the kicker. i do not want another mediocre mundane, dead end job.
*commercial*
[What if working fast food is my calling? ive never done it before so i'll never know if i like it or not]

idk.
i want to move to nashville and live there and then become a traveling Speaker.
That is my dream.

i'm in the spot again where i have to figure out what's next.
Do i have to stay at home with my mother working FF jobs in the mediocre city.
is that what im destined to do?

i feel like it is. at least in this moment i feel like it is.

Last night i felt like god was telling me to start looking for jobs in nashville, today i feel like i should just apply to mcdonalds,

im there again. confused. am i being scared and complacent or am i being presumptuous?

i know what I want. just not sure what God wants for me. i know he wants me to be happy. and i also know he knows what makes me happy more than i know.

ugh.
i hope this is just another test of hearing his voice. because i really do not want to be stuck here.
:-/

It always comes back to this.